Today, I looked at our family photo calendar and realized that next week I need to turn the page.
So I went ahead and peeked at June, and saw this:
A year. Next month, it will be a year since we left on our adventure. At exactly this time last year, I was in full-on Brain Spin mode. Planning, thinking, worrying…and wondering. Wondering if we could pull it off. Wondering what the rest of the year had in store for us. Wondering if we would be the same or different when we returned.
I often get asked what we would do differently if we were to do it again. Or if we have any regrets.
I do have one regret.
I regret that I haven’t taken the time to really reflect on our 4 1/2 months abroad. That I allowed life to pull us back in so quickly that I haven’t stopped to think about all we did, about how we grew as individuals and as a family.
It hits me once in awhile. And, it’s a pretty cool realization when it does.
For some reason, it often hits me when we’re doing something completely ordinary. Like the dishes. I’ll look over at Hubs at the sink (yep…he actually likes doing dishes, but do NOT ask him to fold laundry), and I’ll think, “Wow. We did it. We really did it.”
Sometimes I’ll say exactly that out loud. The first few times it happened, Hubs looked at me completely confused, “We did what?”
“We actually went abroad for 4 1/2 months. We did it.”
“Um…yes…I know that. I was there.”
The conversation usually stopped there, and now, it just goes like this:
“Wow. We did it. We really did it.”
He doesn’t even ask, but just automatically responds, “Yes, we went abroad for 4 1/2 months. I get it.”
But I know he really does get it. That he knows there is so much more emotion behind those words. That sometimes it’s like I step outside of myself and think, “Man, we REALLY did it!”
This past weekend, a dear friend and her daughters came to visit us. She asked questions about our time in Europe, and she asked if we were ready to come home by the end of the trip.
Hubs who, ironically, was doing the dishes, said, “No. Honestly, I think we could still be there. We did great, and we could have still kept going.”
Which led us into a conversation about how well the trip went, how the kids have changed, how traveling was actually pretty easy overall.
It led us into a conversation of reflection.
Maybe we need to do the dishes more often.